09/07/2026 I've been quitting vaping for about a week and now im gonna try out nicotine gum next time i get a craving. i went rollerskaing in the park near by my house. next time i go ill put a video of it on my videos page. right now im sick with some throat thing and i really want to get a humidifer + air purifier cause i am STRUGGLING. my room is basically my apartment at this point in my life, ive been tricking it out with all sorts of things that make living in my room for the few hours a day im not out, comfortable. ive always wanted a foldable futon that i could stick away after im done doing the bare minium of sleep. so that i could have more space to move around in my room. and im still up for that idea , but it could change once i move out. which im pretty damn close to! im 18 very very soon and i think ill be ready to leave the nest around this time next year. all that to say im rearanging my room restlessly trying to get out my feelings about being so so so close to getting the freedom ive always wanted and trying to figure out what to do with the freedom im getting right now. anyways here are a few albums ive been listing to recently
26/09/2025 beautiful dresses i wish i had the money for

ive been very into white sundresses recently that verge on nightgown territory. it sounds unlike me if you know me and my history with fashion but i feel what im into is shifting a lot. my expression is changing a lot. im shifting into clothes a young dead wife would wear. im really woman-ing it out for now.
do most of them look the same? yes but i love them all.
mini dresses are also an obbession. im very short so they make my legs look longer
some of my favorites are more pratical than others... if you like my fashion sense then stalk my pin board :)
i love 60s fashion, i love 20s 'boyish' silhouettes, i love miu miu, i love paterned tights and wearing monochrome black but i have very little money for it. i might post my perfumes next.
24/09/2025 knowing jane birkin felt she was awkward, weird, and unnoticeably plain and that she faked it till she made it. gives me refuge, makes how i feel, so real. i know ill never have an impact as large as her, but maybe i can live as true to myself like she did. thats really how new things and thoughts are made. ive been worried people are running out of ideas as a whole and the art world eventually will stop. i think that was just pessimism, im not sure thats possible. what you cant fake and can never purge from yourself has to hold your best ideas. i cant think about it, i should just live how i want to live. i feel similarly about widona ryder, everytime im feeling sad i go and rewatch her criteron closet and life in looks. as well as david lynch, he says everything so simply, like the truth to him has been obvious clear forever, but not in a way that hes talking down, but that its all so natural to him.
23/09/2025 HIGH FASHION RUNWAY IDEA perfume company is on the slot for a fashion show. the models are almost completely naked, save for a 2 inch thin latex tube top with the name of a perfume and then a similarly thin latax mini skirt with the scent notes, dowesd in perfume and they walk really really close to the crowd so they can smell it